Life lately has been… a bit bananas.
In the past six months, my life has flipped-turned upside down. I now understand just exactly what the Fresh Prince was rappin’ about.
On one hand it feels like I am just doing my thang. One day at a time, I am learning, growing, and moving forward. It feels pretty settled. Then I look at the other hand and am like, “Woah! Bear Claw!?!?! What happened????!?!?!”
My (very cloudy) point is, when I slow down and reflect on my life today versus life just six months ago. The change is profound.
So what happened?
i graduated nursing school, i got a brother in law! i became an RN, i moved, i adjusted to living on my own, i started a new job, i met new people, i missed past people, some people moved further away, others needed time to heal, we all needed time to heal.
Some things are personal and just aren’t safe to talk about on the interwebz, so I’m just going to share a bitty bit on my job.
When I took this chance on myself two and half years ago, I never imagined life would be this incredible. I work at the best place (for me, that is). I am supported by my coworkers and my supervisors. I am learning every day (and night) and my teachers are everyone; my manager and preceptors, other nurses, my patients, E – the sweetest housekeeper, patients’ sons (and husbands, sisters, wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, parents), physician’s, robot doctors (aka the telecommuting doc), nursing aids, the chaplain, RT, hospice workers, and social workers. I started praying that I would be ‘teachable’ at the beginning of each shift because there is just so much to learn. I am grateful I work in a place that welcomes questions and am surrounded by people who will help.
At the end of every shift, I shuffle back to my car. The air is cold and my legs are tired. I plop down in my seat and become engulfed in a feeling of satisfaction. Even on the hardest days (/nights), when you are just doing your absolute best, but it seems like there is just so much MORE that you need to do on top of that, I end up with this feeling. I know I am where I am meant to be. I know I will continue to learn and grow with time and experience.
These past six months have been a soulful workout. I have seen and experienced more than I ever could have predicted, but I feel better for it. It is like after a good cry (and you know I love those), you feel cleansed, but also fortified? I guess that is how it feels when I sit down and think about it.
Oh! And guess what? I think I might like night shift! Cool, huh? I’m only two weeks deep now, so we shall see how it goes with time. I credit my pack of night shifting friends who have been giving me step-by-step guidelines on how to survive. They’re awesome.