Focus.

Bleehchc.

So for anyone who enjoys reading this, I apologize for my absence from the internet.  I love writing and I have found this blog a joyful sanctuary to explore my mind and my thoughts.

However, a few months ago that changed.

I know the internet can be a wonderful place where people can bond over rare, shared experiences.  We can connect, research, learn, and explore.  The vastness of information and ability at our fingertips is a huge gift, but this is a gift that comes with responsibility.

We must remember that we are all still humans here.  We are fragile, faulty, vulnerable humans.  When we write things, it is another person reading it.  Another person with feelings and a life with unknown struggles.

I have been trolled by someone who knows a family member of mine.  This person found my facebook/twitter/blog/everything and has attempted to contact me and has sent me hurtful messages (about issues that I am not involved in).

So I did what I thought best and I avoided it.  That is a strategy that I learned a long time ago.

  • Is it scary? Avoid it!
  • Is it uncomfortable?  Avoid it!
  • Is it out of my control? Avoid it!

Now, while this at times, was an ohhkay survival mechanism.  It is most certainly not a healthy approach at life.  It is not a good reason for me to avoid doing something I love and that brings me happiness.  Because a lot of times when I am avoiding those scary uncomfortable things, I am, in turn, avoiding joy.  And that’s only cheating myself.

So, I’m going to do something differently.  I’m not going to avoid this, I am going to just keep the focus on me.  This blog is for me and I am going to keep it that way.

My friends, as we continue journeying through 2016, let’s be joyful.  Let’s focus on what matters – being kind and loving to those around us.  The only way I can do that is by keeping the focus on me.  What is my attitude like, what is my behavior like?  I cannot control others, I can just control how I react to them.

Today, I choose to participate in the things I love doing.  I choose to focus on me, and to be kind and loving to those around me.

Courtney